As I write this post, keep in my mind that this is coming from inner-thoughts and from the bottom of my heart.
I woke up feeling a little bit different this morning: a feeling of comfortability and not in good way. More specifically in a certain area of where I am in my life right now. Maybe it’s not even comfortability but a feeling that is indescribable at the moment.
I stress the importance of doing more of what makes you happy but sometimes I find it hard to take my own advice.
As I have mentioned in this very moment of my life, I am living stress-free. I have never been this de-stressed since I was child and I’m yearning for more of it. A lot has to do with putting myself first. I have a habit of putting others before myself and sometimes it leads to depletion and exhaustion.
I used to think putting myself before others made me a selfish person. I no longer think that. For my own sanity and happiness, I have to do more for me because I have given so much of myself to others. Whether it has worked out or not for the people who come in and out of my life, I only wish them the best and hope nothing but great things after giving a lending hand.
I could cry writing this all of this. It’s neither good or bad. I have had moments where I wish I could go back and take some of those times back for myself but I don’t think things would have turned out the way they did now. Time is not something you can take back. We only have one life. We should make the best of it.
For me, I’m starting with myself. My happiness and well-being is not depended on anyone but myself. I’m in my feels, it’s vibe and I see the stars aligning.
I see great things coming which in turn will draw me out this temporary funk.
Sometimes I just need to jot these things out for myself. Even if none of what I just wrote made any sense. If you’re reading this, I believe in some ways, you might actually understand where I’m coming from. You could relate to what I’m saying. You can make sense of my mumble-jumble as it could’ve your mumble-jumble at one point.
Needless to say, thanks for just reading this rant. I am in a vulnerable state of mind and I’m okay with that. With you. With my close loved ones.
I’m going to go throw on my AirPods, get in my vibes playlist, and enjoy this upcoming journey despite the funky moods. You know why? Because it’s just temporary.