Let’s have a heart to heart this morning. I know as a blogger, I have been very open and honest about my feelings and the stories I have shared thus far.
The biggest thing I want to emphasize on this journey of being a Blogger is that I’m being real in all I write and all that you end up reading. This isn’t “for show.” This isn’t putting on a facade and acting like my problems are bigger than yours and you could learn from it. It’s not me always being on a “positive note.”
I am a real human being that shares the same thoughts and feelings as you may have. I’m still an average Joe in this world; not that I settle to be but because I really am just like one of you. I yearn to strive and become better in this world doing what I enjoy the most.
But it doesn’t eliminate that we may go through the similar obstacles which is why I started this blog in the first place: to give readers a place to feel like there is someone out there who can relate to their situation.
I am a hard-working individual and I try my best to not dwell on situations that are out my control. I learn to trust the process more and more. I trust my gut instinct and I don’t ever want to waste anyone’s time and energy.
These are real feelings that others feel all the time. I am your average San Diego commuter. I do sit traffic for 30 minutes every morning trying to get to work and 45 minutes every afternoon trying to get home. I do question whether enjoy doing my job and whether this working environment is right for me… all the time. I every now and then have days where I’m not gungho to work out and I rather much sit in front of a tv and watch mindless shows. There are nights where I rather stay in than go out or go out than stay in. There are times when I undeniably still need the comfort of my parents. There is always fear in disappointing the people you love the most.
I am only human. I never want to paint myself as this superhero woman that can do everything. I am flexible in my craft but I make mistakes. I make choices that people will not agree with but that’s okay because I know what I am only doing what is best for myself. And I am learning to keep that mentality as my state of being. “I am doing what is best for myself. Only I know and understand the decisions I make.”
One thing I want to assure you though is that it’s okay to have all these kinds of feelings and go through the motion. I feel like people thrive so much on trying to pick yourself up and just “go” but what about allowing yourself to feel and collect those feels to move forward?
Be real. With yourself. With the people who love you the most. Those are the people who are not going to judge you. They’re going to be there for you no matter what. Ups and downs and the highs and lows. Be real and true to your thoughts and feelings. I don’t believe people have these “thoughts and feelings” for just any reasons – could be bad, could be good, could be indifferent, etc.
I’m sorry if it’s heavy morning but these are feelings I needed to jot out myself as I was thinking about it on my morning commute. I have yet to be afraid to express my feelings. I’m trusting the positive and negative gut feelings I am currently having. And I want to say thank you for taking the time to read over this post. Again, I’m just as human as the next person. I have lots and lots of feelings as much as you probably do. And it’s okay to feel them all.
Until the next post,
With love and support,